Alright the first,of all the things that happened in the ending that affected me was when Lucy was fight Mariko and she was losing and then her horn was torn off and then the building gets dropped on Lucy and her eyes were all white.This kind of made me feel conflicted,I felt worried that Lucy had died(which really would have pissed me off if she had died)and I was kind of in denial of her death.
Next when Kurama meets with Mariko and they have their heartfelt moment that made me feel sad and I start to feel like cry but dont(I was still more busy worrying about what happened to Lucy).Then when Kurama hugs Mariko and starts walking away and tells the other guy to set the bomb and Kurama & Mariko died at the bridge together I accepted that and thought that was a good way for them to die(Together).
Then when it turns out Lucy is still alive,I was filled with relief and was really happy.After seeing Lucy is alive I start thinking "Now Lucy and Kouta will have their talk on the stone steps,make up and fall back in love."
Now Lucy is talking to Kouta about how she can destroy humanity in as little as 5 yrs and how she cherishes her memories of him and her during her childhood.And then she talks about how long she been wanting to apologize for killing Kouta's family and she starts crying(causing me to start to cry a little).
Then when Kouta says he cant forgive Lucy for killing his family,but also can't let Lucy leave because he loves her.Again I felt like crying because it really show how important Lucy was to Kouta and how much he loved her.
And the have their first kiss,this enlighten me and caused me to feel really happy.Then the flashbacks of their childhood begin to appear and I had been fighting my tear but after this there only some much a guy can handle and I start balling the f*ck out and start crying like a ******.
Lucy leaves to fight against the soldiers and her other horn get shot off.Which cause me to think that Lucy once again died.
Then when Wanta starts barking and Yuka asks "Is someone at the gate?" I automatically amuse that it's Lucy.We see someone standing behind the gate and I'm all like "yes it has to be Lucy" but then my mind start to think "what if its not Lucy and its someone else".
Kouta goes to open the door then music box stops playing and then all of a sudden I hear "dougounga"(the noise the clock makes)and the clock that wasn't working throughout the whole series started working and Kouta comments about the clock working and then all I see is darkness with the words "DAS ENDE".
So we dont get to see who was behind the gate,obviously it had to be Lucy anybody else and it wouldn't make sense.But my mind didn't like this about the ending,I keep wondering "what if it wasn't Lucy?","Then who could have it been?". Throughout the whole night I couldn't sleep,now I was thinking about this "Did Lucy die after her horns were both shot off?", "Yes", "No","Maybe","IDK".If she did survive would she and Kouta start a relationship and fall back in love again like they did when they were kid?
Ultimately there how I think things turned out after Lucy survived.It was exactly like the manga and Lucy dies to healing Kouta and Kouta kills the DNA vioce.
Or another version I accepted is that Lucy stopped Chief Kakuzawa's plans for world domination and pretty much just like the manga except Lucy doesn't died,Kouta finally forgives Lucy for killing his family and they fall back in love.
I made this thread mainly for myself because I really loved the series and want to remember how I felt about the ending.So that when I choose to reread the manga and rewatch the anime in about a few months or years I can compare and contrast how the series affected me personally.And also to share my experience with anyone who has followed the series and loved it as much as me.