Note: Reminder to myself. AS the days go by, kayame still hasnt remembered us. Its hard for me to place a smile on my face at times infront of kayame, kaname or kouken. AS kouken and kaname sleep, I stay up to find ways to figure a way to bring her memories so that I can see kouken and kaname smile again. I sometimes think that maybe kayame will not get her memories back but in my heart I know there has to be a way. Kouken misses his mom as I know kaname misses his sister. I try my best to keep kayame's promises of taking care of them, and making sure that they are happy. I sit in my room at times when I want to be alone and all I do is look through different books that I brought with me. Kigura has told me that I need to give time but inside I feel like there has to be a way. I can't let kaname or kouken know that I have been staying up two days after kayame lost her memory of us. I will not try to worry them and make sure they are ok and be there when they need it. Hopefully I can see them smile like I did in the past. I love kaname with all my heart and kouken as a friend, I want to do my best for them.